Encounter

I've been wanting to write this post since LAST Sunday, and just never got to it.

The church that I've been going to had a worship night (which I guess they have once a month) last Sunday. Basically they sing in worship for about an hour.

It was SO wonderful, and powerful!

I loved every minute.

There is something so special about so many believers in one place together, worshiping God with all their hearts.

I had this image in my head of God and His HUGE cross. I was thinking about how BIG God is. Looking around at all of the people in the sanctuary with me. People filled with their own problems, their own lives.... and then about my problems. How they seem SO big to me because for right now, it consumes e v e r y part of my life. It's school. It's hard. It's tough. Makes me smile. and want to cry. I love my kids. and I can't stand them. and I'm C O N S U M E D with this, on a daily basis.

But here is God and his MIGHTY CROSS. I had the image of little, tiny, me. And my little tiny life.
In the perspective of everything else, it didn't seem so big. I kept thinking about my smallness and presenting my "stuff" to God. Laying it at his cross and just  looking up at His cross in awe.

Are you getting it? Can you picture it? What a powerful image. It's saying "Here it is God" "You take it" "I surrender" "You are SO much bigger and greater than I or my problems will EVER be."

Even though it seems SO HUGE and massive in my life. Like this mountain I can't see around..... I can give it to God and worship Him in awe of who He is.

It is a wonderfully humbling revelation.

Listen to this song. SO good.

Nashville and PJ weather

The weekends are SO so nice. I absolutely love to sleep in (even though these days I can't seem to sleep past 8:30), lay around in my pjs and get things done. I'm so grateful for two days built into the week that we always have off.

This weekend I watched a TON of the show Nashville. I had a one week free trial of hulu-plus so I got caught up. Waste of time? Umm. YES, but entertaining? I think so. I like it a lot. So I can add that to my list of shows.

I was just playing some guitar and it felt sooo good. I haven't played in while and honestly it's such a relief to do something well without much effort. It comes so easily and is so non-stressful. Love it.

I'm thinking about bringing it in to school one of these days to play for my cherubs.
I had my ukulele one day for a lesson and they were basically memorized when I played a few chords...ha. I honestly don't think music like that is something they've had much exposure to.

This weekend has been cold and cloudy... (good pj layin' weather). It's strange (and I'm jealous) because back home in PA it's been like sunny and 70! Weird.

FIVE WEEKS TILL SUMMERRRRRRRRRR. I can't wait. I miss my friends and my family so much.

I'm amazed that I've come this far, but God helps me through every day.

Things have gotten easier bit by bit. I'm constantly learning new ways to manage my classroom. It's still tough, and the kids still come with all of their behavior problems every day...but I can honestly say that I love those kids. I'm not sure how THAT works, but as I've been able to build up more of a relationship with each of them, I definitely feel more ...protective(?) of them.

I should work on my plans, but allllll I want to do is sleep.