Sooo....it's been a whole solid TWO MONTHS since I've blogged.
Honestly, I have not forgotten about my blog. I think about it all the time ( I mean, I still read blogs everyday and I am aware that I haven't been doing it)
That was probably the longest stretch since I started blogging...two years ago now! (I missed the blogiversary..sad, sad.)
Things are just going along smoothly, changing slowly all the time.
School is over for the summer this Thursday. I was excited for summer...(not sure WHY because all I'll be doing is working at the store and have nothing else planned...) but anyway, now I feel a little sad about the year being over. Especially because one of my good friends is being transferred to a different school in the district. :( I can't imagine how it will be different, but of course I don't like to think about it!
I think it's just hit me that the year is really over...and bring on the change. blehh...
darn, you change. Unwelcome companion that never leaves. ohh what it does to me.
So that's school... I'll miss the kids, the staff....my room? I go there everyday.... and now I won't. This is just weird.
In other news...I'm contemplating switching churches. I'm really kind of struggling with these feelings because I love the people at "my church". I was finally feeling "connected" come March.... but now....it's different. I don't get to participate in the events and I spend very little time with those people because of my work schedule. Where I was starting to feel a peace about belonging...now there is none. It kind of went backwards.
I feel like it might be God's leading to try somewhere else. I just want to do what's right.
Why do I always have this feeling in the back of my mind like I'm doing it all wrong?
I don't know what the "right" thing to do would be either though....
My mind is so not "at peace".
At this church banquet I went to a couple of weeks ago, they were talking about a gentle and quiet spirit. How it is not about your personality... it's about your SPIRIT.
Having a spirit that is quiet and gentle is not about worrying, and thinking until I get worked up. (like I am now) it's allowing God's peace to wash over and be SO present that I'm in that peaceful state. The one where I can trust that with God it will all work itself out.
I'm praying for that kind of spirit and maybe if you're in the same boat you can pray the prayer too!
I'm not sure...but I may be taking a break from the good ole blog..
we'll see.
