Okay, so I haven't blogged in FOREVER and ever. Epic fail.
I've been so busy!
Thanksgiving was great, and now I'm in my end of the semester junior block placement. I'm in a fourth grade classroom. Tomorrow it will be a week since I've been going! I've had NO time to even THINK about blogging, or read other peoples, it's kind of sad, but I have a feeling it will continue that way for the next couple of weeks.
It's a very strange transition going from having a college kid schedule, with lots of time during the day, to being gone ALL day EVERY day on a teacher schedule. (I'm still mourning the loss of my free Fridays) I appreciate the weekend SO much more now! It means I get to sleep in and actually breathe and remember my life outside of 4th grade.
I am loving my placement for the most part. My cooperating teacher is really good at just that-being a cooperating teacher. She's great about letting me do things and guiding me. She's also super nice to me which is always a plus. I love the students, and I love the atmosphere of the school. It's been hard to adjust to the curriculum they use, just because what we learned at MU was so much more hands-on approach. I have definitely been struggling with that aspect but I'm working on it.
The only thing that really, honestly keeps me going and feeling like "yes, I CAN do this..!" is God. The strength and peace He gives me each day before I go to school is amazing. When I'm focusing on Him, I'm able to let things roll off my back much easier-if you will. Little things will happen sometimes and I beat myself up about them so much and end up developing the worst attitude. BUT when I see myself in God's eyes He reminds me that this is a LEARNING experience. I was never a teacher before and I won't be perfect right away. That's what I keep telling myself.
Overall, I've felt a TON better these past couple weeks. I've felt so much more like myself and it's been so nice. God's been speaking constantly, in so many ways, and I love all of the little things He does that make my day!
As far as the future goes it's something that I still need to constantly check myself about, and surrender things back to God. To LET GO. Sometimes out of nowhere I start to feel all anxious, but it hasn't been happening TOO often.
Overall, I'm trying to learn all I can in this placement and have fun with it. Also, to RELAX and know that God's got me, and I can lean on Him through all of these teacher duties.
:)
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Monday, December 6, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Isaiah 26:3-4
Today was a loonnnggg day.
I'm super tired right now and I have little to no motivation to study for my phonics exam tomorrow. Like it's actually sad how little I have studied for it.I'm not sure why but I could just NOT focus for the life of me until like 9 tonight..! ohhh well, I'm not too concerned about it, (perhaps that is why motivation is low)
I did get to take a little walk tonight:) It was a nice after dinner walk...(yes, I WAS by myself)
I decided it would be wise not to take my cell phone or ANYthing at all with me.
Well, it got dark pretty quick so my walk was short lived. (I was a little freaked out bc I didn't have anything on me..)But I still enjoyed it! It was beautiful out (still is actually) :)
So anyway, the point of this post is to say that I had one of my math presentations this morning. It was my website presentation. When I woke up I felt really nervous, like more than I usually would for a presentation. Which made me MORE nervous, that I was nervous. haa. Because then I feel like I'll do a bad job if I'm really THAT nervous.
It's a vicious cycle people. Buuut the YAY part is that I brought it to God in the morning, and again during class. I was pretty nervous in class too, but I kept praying over and over that God would give me a calm heart/calm me down, and He did!
When it was my turn I was a little nervous, (but the good, excited kind) not the
"oh my gosh I'm going to have a panic attack" kind. ;)(it was just about getting there..ha..almost.
I was reminded once again that My God neverr ever fails. He is always right there with me, giving me peace, calming my heart, and putting things into perspective.
:D I'm so thankful!
Now to go to sleep..or study? hmm..
3You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.
4So trust in the Lord (commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him) forever; for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages].
I'm super tired right now and I have little to no motivation to study for my phonics exam tomorrow. Like it's actually sad how little I have studied for it.I'm not sure why but I could just NOT focus for the life of me until like 9 tonight..! ohhh well, I'm not too concerned about it, (perhaps that is why motivation is low)
I did get to take a little walk tonight:) It was a nice after dinner walk...(yes, I WAS by myself)
I decided it would be wise not to take my cell phone or ANYthing at all with me.
Well, it got dark pretty quick so my walk was short lived. (I was a little freaked out bc I didn't have anything on me..)But I still enjoyed it! It was beautiful out (still is actually) :)
So anyway, the point of this post is to say that I had one of my math presentations this morning. It was my website presentation. When I woke up I felt really nervous, like more than I usually would for a presentation. Which made me MORE nervous, that I was nervous. haa. Because then I feel like I'll do a bad job if I'm really THAT nervous.
It's a vicious cycle people. Buuut the YAY part is that I brought it to God in the morning, and again during class. I was pretty nervous in class too, but I kept praying over and over that God would give me a calm heart/calm me down, and He did!
When it was my turn I was a little nervous, (but the good, excited kind) not the
"oh my gosh I'm going to have a panic attack" kind. ;)(it was just about getting there..ha..almost.
I was reminded once again that My God neverr ever fails. He is always right there with me, giving me peace, calming my heart, and putting things into perspective.
:D I'm so thankful!
Now to go to sleep..or study? hmm..
3You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.
4So trust in the Lord (commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him) forever; for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages].
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Trust
It's summer! (Kind of) I started my class on Monday, one week down, three to go. So far this class hasn't been TOO awful or stressful, but it was only the first week. My goal is not to get too stressed out about it. I have a placement with this class and I found out the first day of class that I was placed in an early intervention classroom with children who have developmental speech delays...
..my first thought was oh great..I don't want this, and I was really kind of worried about it, but then I started to get kind of excited and see that it could be a neat experience. I went to the school on Thursday for the first time and it was good but a little...scary? Not scary...just very different from what I am used to. The class is all boys. This scared me when the teacher told me that, but really, they are all so cute, I really do like the kids. They aren't as delayed in their speech as I had pictured, a lot of them are actually speaking pretty well. I had expected that the children were only delayed in their speech though and once they got help they would be "Okay".. but the teacher explained to me that each of the children there are delayed in pretty much every area and when they go to school they will most likely be in special education classes. It was really heart breaking and sad... Some of them have autism, one has aspergers..and there is one little boy who is completely non-verbal. He's such a cutie though, he's from a Spanish speaking home so he doesn't speak English...but the thing is, he can't speak in Spanish either and seemingly has trouble understanding what is said in either language.
It will definitely be a challenge for me to write and teach lessons for these children. They range in age from 3 to 5 and they are alll over the board skill wise..and when I teach them I'll have to try to get to each of their levels. It's already been stretching me and I'm sure it will continue to be a stretching time as I write my lessons and actually try to teach.
As nerve racking as it is, I'm excited that God has me in this place. It's new, I'm not at all comfortable with it, and it's challenging. I feel like God has placed me in this exact class and school for good reason. I'm really going to have to put myself out of my comfort zone these next couple weeks...and I'm honestly scared. It's amazing though because I feel God's amazing peace and I'm able to trust Him with it because I literally have no idea.. It's so new for me, but God knows it will work out and that I'll grow and I'll be OKAY.
Tonight I was working on stuff for my PLM (Plan for learning module), well really alll day I was working on it, and I decided to lay down. I had my window open and my music on and it was so nice. The cool breeze was so refreshing and I just felt such a peace..about everything. Things I've been worried about, school, LIFE. I truly believe right now that God has me and it's the most amazing feeling in the world. I wish I could bottle it up and always feel like this. I decided to read my devotion for today...(and yesterday, I missed one..whoops). They were both generally about coming to God to find strength and how we neeeed that one on one, alone time with God, it's so important in our relationship with Him and to remind us that WE don't control our lives (or shouldn't be trying to) but God DOES. He talks us through challenging situations and equips us to handle the difficulties..all we need to do is relax..and trust Him.
"..be strong in the Lord [be empowered through your union with Him]; draw your strength from Him [that strength which His boundless might provides.]" Ephesians 6:10
I feel slightly better about this trust thing..God truly is helping and guiding me to trust Him more. I can try to think ahead and plan all I want, but all it does is give me anxiety and make me feel horrible...and for what? Absolutely. nothing. Things will still happen how they will. God gives me what I need for each day not a year from now and I'm really trying to remember to focus on today and rely on God for the things I can't see. (Even the things I CAN see..ha)
"But He said to me, My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect and show themselves most effective in your weakness.." 2 Corinthians 12:9
Also, praise God I got through the hardest semester of my life with all A's!!! :D God is so amazing.
..my first thought was oh great..I don't want this, and I was really kind of worried about it, but then I started to get kind of excited and see that it could be a neat experience. I went to the school on Thursday for the first time and it was good but a little...scary? Not scary...just very different from what I am used to. The class is all boys. This scared me when the teacher told me that, but really, they are all so cute, I really do like the kids. They aren't as delayed in their speech as I had pictured, a lot of them are actually speaking pretty well. I had expected that the children were only delayed in their speech though and once they got help they would be "Okay".. but the teacher explained to me that each of the children there are delayed in pretty much every area and when they go to school they will most likely be in special education classes. It was really heart breaking and sad... Some of them have autism, one has aspergers..and there is one little boy who is completely non-verbal. He's such a cutie though, he's from a Spanish speaking home so he doesn't speak English...but the thing is, he can't speak in Spanish either and seemingly has trouble understanding what is said in either language.
It will definitely be a challenge for me to write and teach lessons for these children. They range in age from 3 to 5 and they are alll over the board skill wise..and when I teach them I'll have to try to get to each of their levels. It's already been stretching me and I'm sure it will continue to be a stretching time as I write my lessons and actually try to teach.
As nerve racking as it is, I'm excited that God has me in this place. It's new, I'm not at all comfortable with it, and it's challenging. I feel like God has placed me in this exact class and school for good reason. I'm really going to have to put myself out of my comfort zone these next couple weeks...and I'm honestly scared. It's amazing though because I feel God's amazing peace and I'm able to trust Him with it because I literally have no idea.. It's so new for me, but God knows it will work out and that I'll grow and I'll be OKAY.
Tonight I was working on stuff for my PLM (Plan for learning module), well really alll day I was working on it, and I decided to lay down. I had my window open and my music on and it was so nice. The cool breeze was so refreshing and I just felt such a peace..about everything. Things I've been worried about, school, LIFE. I truly believe right now that God has me and it's the most amazing feeling in the world. I wish I could bottle it up and always feel like this. I decided to read my devotion for today...(and yesterday, I missed one..whoops). They were both generally about coming to God to find strength and how we neeeed that one on one, alone time with God, it's so important in our relationship with Him and to remind us that WE don't control our lives (or shouldn't be trying to) but God DOES. He talks us through challenging situations and equips us to handle the difficulties..all we need to do is relax..and trust Him.
"..be strong in the Lord [be empowered through your union with Him]; draw your strength from Him [that strength which His boundless might provides.]" Ephesians 6:10
I feel slightly better about this trust thing..God truly is helping and guiding me to trust Him more. I can try to think ahead and plan all I want, but all it does is give me anxiety and make me feel horrible...and for what? Absolutely. nothing. Things will still happen how they will. God gives me what I need for each day not a year from now and I'm really trying to remember to focus on today and rely on God for the things I can't see. (Even the things I CAN see..ha)
"But He said to me, My grace (My favor and loving-kindness and mercy) is enough for you [sufficient against any danger and enables you to bear the trouble manfully]; for My strength and power are made perfect and show themselves most effective in your weakness.." 2 Corinthians 12:9
Also, praise God I got through the hardest semester of my life with all A's!!! :D God is so amazing.
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