Mary Poppins and letting go..

Thanks for the encouragement on my other post. :)
I don't feel quite as bad as I did then, but I still am really, working on letting things go to God.

I've been realizing from friends, and God's gentle whisper on my heart that I really need to let go.

I know exactly what I want for my life right now, in a perfect world. I want a JOB. I want roommates and an apartment. I want to feel secure in those things, but right now none of those are set in stone. They are wavering frequently ALL the time, and it drives me crazy.

It's so hard for me to let go! I keep hearing God whispering to me that I need to release these ideals that I have in my head about next year, but it's really realllly hard for me. =/ Why can't it be easy?

It's especially hard because I need to be active in the job search, living search, and roommate search but how will I know if I'm doing the wrong thing? If I go for what I want does that automatically make it wrong..? I feel like it does but I don't know.

I just feel so lost when I think about those things. I sort of feel like God is mad at me because I'm so selfish and I just want to live where III want to live. I want to work where III want to work. I want to please Him, but can't those go hand in hand..?

It's confusing.

Those things aside, I had a really fantastic weekend. I went home for the weekend and hung out in Philly on Saturday. My best friend's family and I went to see Mary Poppins. It was SUCH a fun weekend, the show was awesome!
I feel so blessed to feel so close to her family. I honestly feel like they are my second family and it's a huge blessing. Here's a picture of my bff, her sis and me (it was hard to get one with all 3 of us in the car..ha)


We also walked around before the show and went to this DELICIOUS chocolate cafe. We shared lots of sweet treats.



We also went to LOVE park and got lots of pictures with those big game pieces. :) It was so much fun.



The weekend flew by. I'm not sure I'm ready for Monday yet.

My Japan relief idea is going in a really awesome direction! I sent a message to a lot of friends on facebook to get a general idea of interest and 9 or so people want one! So I've been a busy little bee on my sewing machine. :)

Well, I really need to stop procrastinating and think through my lessons for tomorrow!

Hope everyone has a lovely week!