shhhh

So…I’m doing it.

Never have I ever done this before, but I am blogging at work. (shh don’t tell!)

Now it’s probably not exactly what you think. I’m not IN blogger, that would be crossing the line people.. no no, I’m just in Microsoft word.

And, did you know, you can set posts to go up at a specific day and time?

It’s pretty handy, I’ve done that a time or two.

I’m sort of having a conflict of interests in my brain today.

Maybe you've dealt with it before.

I’ve been hanging around a group of girls who you could kind of classify as a “church group”. It’s been pretty good, and I really like the girls and their company.

But lately I’ve felt kind of a weird hesitation in my stomach.

They’re believers in Jesus like me, but it’s like they almost have different standards than me.

I have things that I just don’t feel comfortable with. (like for example foul language.)

I don’t like it.

It offends me.

And in my book, Christians are supposed to be different and NOT do it. Sure, it might be cool to the rest of the world, but us? We’re supposed to hold a different standard. That’s just one example. They make it seem almost like it’s okay, and that it’s cool or something…idk. (..sorry feels like middle school again.)

I also know that self-consciously when a person is hanging out in a group of people, they kind of adapt to be like them. Purposefully or not, it happens people.

You start to act like them and say the same things.

I’m just now becoming aware of it and now I’m really trying to guard my heart. I don’t want to feel like I need to change myself to fit with what they do and how they are.

(again don’t get me wrong) they are great, amazing girls. Just something I’ve had a bad taste in my mouth about. =/

Ever felt like that?