Personal God

My parents have been away on vacation this week and I have to say, I'm excited they are coming back tomorrow! I don't like being here by myself...it freaks me out and the house is too quiet. It helps that I'm basically only home for 3 hours in the evening (waking hours anyway)..so it hasn't been too bad at all..but I am glad anyway. =)

I'm pretty excited about camp Swatara next week but I'm also still a little scared. (It's just completely new for me and the whole not knowing thing was getting my nerves going in the beginning of the week.) It doesn't really help that multiple people have asked me "..why??" am I going...and they just react like it makes no sense, which I guess it doesn't to them.

YES people...I am taking a week "off" and going to another camp...where I will not be getting paid for the week..am I crazy?

Maybe... I am.

but I'm really excited about it because I'm doing it for God. He's led me to this point. (at least I think He has) You see, people's reactions have started to make me second guess myself and whether or not it's what God really wants.
When I examine my motives though it makes sense..to me at least. I feel like campers have the opportunity to become way more vulnerable at an overnight camp, away from parents, distractions, and their own lives for the week, to be immersed in a Christian environment. Don't get me wrong, CSF is great and all, but there is something really awesome about developing deeper relationships and having those "deeper discussions" while you're with the campers 24/7. That's what I hope comes out of this week. I want to share my faith with these campers and help them in theirs! I'm so excited. It's not about me at all, and it's definitely NOT about the money.

If anyone reads this and prays I would appreciate prayers that God will prepare my heart for the week and that He'll work through me.
As I've been sitting down trying to "plan" things for devotions like the manual (yes...I'm a nerd) says to, I mostly get the feeling that I shouldn't prepare too much. I don't know the girls yet, I don't know what will happen during the day yet, or what exactly the lessons will be like...and planning and thinking about it too much is what makes me nervous in the first place...hah. I have faith that God will give me words to say and that He will lead us. Especially because He's led me to this place..I know He will follow through (like He ALWAYS does). He won't just leave me hanging, no way.



Tonight I'm SO thankful that God is such a personal God. It brings me so much comfort to know that He REALLY knows me, because He is the one who made me. =)

13For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother's womb.
15My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colors] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery].
16Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them.
17How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!(E)
18If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand.

Psalm 139:13, 15-18