Decisions and Safety Nets

So I'm at a place right now where I have about a million questions running through my head.

I'm trying to figure out my life, in a major way.

I do this thing where I think about all the possible options, and then all the things that could/might happen, and how things will work out with each option.

Now, you could say, sure well that's normal. And maybe it is, to a certain extent. But I do this to the EXTREME, and I make myself sick about it. All of these hypothetical situations in my head are driving me crazy.

There are some big life decisions headed my way. (at least for me and my little life)

What am I going to do after graduation?

I originally, in the back of my mind always thought I wanted to live out here by school afterwards. I like the area...but more than that it's because certain close friends of mine are here. And well, I don't want to have to leave them. :( They're like my safety net.

So I've been trying and trying to think about roommates and it just seems to be falling through. My landlord was here yesterday fixing a light and he mentioned that he wants to know if any of us are staying on another year lease.. and that didn't help my crazy, controlling, figure-everything-out brain.

The other part of all of this is that I HAVE been praying about it. When I was anxious in September about post-grad, I started praying. I prayed that God would direct me, and show me, and LEAD me where He wanted me. God always does. For me, I usually know if I'm being led in a certain direction if I feel a peace about one decision over the other. (or if doors are being closed)

..So I'm sort of wondering if this is God closing doors..? The roommates are seriously falling through, and there aren't many other options for me since I'm an oldie now and most of my good friends already graduated. I can't live here by myself, because not only wouldn't I want to.. but money wise, that would not be okay.

I'm scared to say it but I also all of a sudden feel a peace about being home. A good friend that I know from school is living around there and so I WOULD have at least one good friend. That alone gave me a peace. The situation with her looking for houses IN (anonymous)where I live is certainly ironic enough. Like what are the chances out of allll of the places that she could live that she would find somewhere 5 minutes from my house?!
I also like being home, I wouldn't need to pay rent, AND I wouldn't be alone.

I feel like God is leading me there in a way... But then there is part of me that panics because it's not really what I want ideally. I would still much rather be here near my best friends...

I don't at all want to be ignoring God's calling for my life.

Are there options here? or does God lead to ONE decision, one way to do something..?

I would love any input..:)

Happy Sunday!