The fourth grade life

Okay, so I haven't blogged in FOREVER and ever. Epic fail.

I've been so busy!

Thanksgiving was great, and now I'm in my end of the semester junior block placement. I'm in a fourth grade classroom. Tomorrow it will be a week since I've been going! I've had NO time to even THINK about blogging, or read other peoples, it's kind of sad, but I have a feeling it will continue that way for the next couple of weeks.

It's a very strange transition going from having a college kid schedule, with lots of time during the day, to being gone ALL day EVERY day on a teacher schedule. (I'm still mourning the loss of my free Fridays) I appreciate the weekend SO much more now! It means I get to sleep in and actually breathe and remember my life outside of 4th grade.

I am loving my placement for the most part. My cooperating teacher is really good at just that-being a cooperating teacher. She's great about letting me do things and guiding me. She's also super nice to me which is always a plus. I love the students, and I love the atmosphere of the school. It's been hard to adjust to the curriculum they use, just because what we learned at MU was so much more hands-on approach. I have definitely been struggling with that aspect but I'm working on it.

The only thing that really, honestly keeps me going and feeling like "yes, I CAN do this..!" is God. The strength and peace He gives me each day before I go to school is amazing. When I'm focusing on Him, I'm able to let things roll off my back much easier-if you will. Little things will happen sometimes and I beat myself up about them so much and end up developing the worst attitude. BUT when I see myself in God's eyes He reminds me that this is a LEARNING experience. I was never a teacher before and I won't be perfect right away. That's what I keep telling myself.

Overall, I've felt a TON better these past couple weeks. I've felt so much more like myself and it's been so nice. God's been speaking constantly, in so many ways, and I love all of the little things He does that make my day!

As far as the future goes it's something that I still need to constantly check myself about, and surrender things back to God. To LET GO. Sometimes out of nowhere I start to feel all anxious, but it hasn't been happening TOO often.

Overall, I'm trying to learn all I can in this placement and have fun with it. Also, to RELAX and know that God's got me, and I can lean on Him through all of these teacher duties.
:)