I can have peace

I've felt weird this week.

I think something has been sort of off with my medication. (I take something for anxiety) It's the scariest thing when it's off. I just hate it.
One day at lunch this week I just felt so weird and not right all of sudden (at school) and started getting weird tingly feelings..I got so scared I didn't even finish my lunch. The rest of the day I felt fine because I was distracted. Then one early morning I woke up feeling so strange again, like my muscles were really tense and I couldn't relax them, and just scared and worried for no reason.
It's the worst because it happens so out of nowhere. I was worried because I'm teaching my full week in 6th grade next week and I don't want to feel sick or anything then. I was thinking it might be because I haven't been taking it at exactly the same time everyday...that could be throwing it off so I'm going to try to be more on top of that.

Anyway- sorry for my rambling about that. It's just really been on my mind. It's amazing what God does with it though!

Things are getting a lot busier and I've been finding it harder to spend a lot of quiet time with God, which is frustrating. It's not that I'm TOO busy necessarily either, because I know I waste a lot of time too. I just need to straighten up my priorities.


Last night's Bible study was SO good. We finished with Romans last week, so this week we started looking at some proverbs about wisdom. The leader tried to gear it towards the mindset of teachers because almost all of the people that go are in that profession. At one point, everyone was talking about how the students just don't LISTEN... and "if the students would only listen and RESPOND it would get them so much further" ..and how "the students just don't do what you tell them, they want to try things their own way". I was thinking about it, and I put all of those things into the aspect of who God is. It blew my mind!

I have never thought about God in that way. It's especially neat because I can so relate to being a teacher and struggling with students at times. It's AWESOME when you put it into an analogy of GOD being the teacher. If only we would listen to Him and respond.. If only we would do things His way instead of our own way... If only we would always be content in what it is He is trying to teach us.

Think about it this way.. In a math class the students might say "this is too hard" or "I will never need this in life" BUT the teacher knows it's actually beneficial and IF the students listen, the teacher can help and it will make more sense. Put that all into the aspect of God as our teacher. We may not understand what God is teaching us in any given moment, or WHY we might be going through a certain situation in our lives, but GOD knows it's for an important lesson. To grow us. To draw us closer to Him. Whatever the reason, if we just stick with our "Teacher" and listen to His instruction and guidance, we will be OKAY. He knows where He is leading and He can see the big picture.
I just love that.

I've made a LOT of progress on my Japan relief purses. I don't know how they have been able to get done so quickly, or how I've found the time, but that's just more evidence at how God's hands are all of this project.
There are about 10 friends from church that want one, and one of those wants TWO! So far I have 8 made :) I get better and quicker with each one.

I've been feeling kind of worried and a little scared about all of the things that are STILL unknown. It's not even those things directly that are scaring me, but the fact that I'm in such a power struggle with God about it. I want to let go, but I feel like I'm still holding on. bahh it's really frustrating.

I think I saw this on someone else's blog the other day but I liked it...

"When the world tells me to worry, I can have peace."

That's important to remember right now with public education seemingly going down the tubes here in PA. It's crazy, I tell ya.

Oh and PS: you might have noticed my *new* tab at the top. I'm starting an ongoing list of 1000 things I'm thankful for, so I will never forget how richly I am blessed. Feel free to check it out!