It probably doesn't help one bit that I was home for a lonng...(SUPER LONG) weekend.
I just strongly dislike this feeling that I don't know where my life is going. It's reaaaallllyyy tough for me right now. :(
I NEED a routine. I need consistency, to feel OKAY. and right now...I just don't have it.
There is nothing in my life right now that I feel I can "grasp" hold of and breathe a sigh of relief that I know what's coming. I just want to hold on to something. I want to know it won't change.
I want to know I'll have a job. I want to know I'll find a good church and meet nice new friends. I want to know I'll have a permanent living space.
But I don't know ANYTHING and it's making me SO anxious. =/
I know, I know...you're saying cling to God! He won't change! And I know it in my head, but my heart's not feelin it right now. blehh
On my way home I was thinking about making new friends...and all that comes with that. It's been quite a while since I've made any new friends... Do I even remember how?!
haa...do you ever feel like that?
Well, I feel that new friends are coming my way with all this new-ness. New church. New job.
New friends. It just makes sense..you see? ;)
mehh. So that is that friends.
You're an amazing woman of God. Any soon-to-be friend, church member, co-worker, or landlord would be crazy not to love every minute they have with you. You're sweet, honest, real. You're wise WAY beyond your years. You're crazy talented. I guess you're a little shy...but it's more your guard your heart. Bottom line, hold on to the fact that you know who you are in God and you always have your "old" friends to love and support you!
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