Indescribable, Uncontainable

I was playing this song a little bit ago on the piano and the truth behind the words really sank in.

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
Incomparable, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God

Wow. Just wow.

This weekend went by in the blink of an eye. I'm sad it's over.

At the R&R retreat this weekend things were a bit different than usual. We had communion with bread, and prayed over the other women at our table. It was so great, and reminded me how much I love the power of prayer.
I realized through journaling that morning that I haven't been getting that genuine, true, amazing relational time with God lately. I have my 10 minutes or so in the morning but then when I go throughout the day I slowly start to go by my "own" strength. I hadn't realized it until this weekend, but I haven't been spending that REAL heart, unloading time with God that I SO need and desperately want. School takes up so much time and when I'm home in the evening I make so many excuses why not to spend more time with God. (I'm too tired to read my Bible, or think about the condition of my heart, pray...etc.) BUT I really need to try to push past those excuses. I know my heart will thank me for the time, and so will my relationship with God. Everything just "runs" better when we are running on that fuel that can only come from the spirit of God.

This weekend I was also talking with a good friend of mine and she was talking about the "masks" that we all put on. We have a mask that we wear. It covers up what we are really feeling inside. This weekend as I was reflecting a bit I realized that I do often put on a mask that I'm A-okay, all the time. I don't always feel good in my heart and mind but I want to appear happy and joyful because I know I should be that way. I don't even really think about it anymore, it's just second nature. There's a fine line I guess between complaining about things in our lives and being real when we aren't perfectly okay, yet being content in that. Does that make sense?
Like...I don't HAVE to appear like I'm completely happy if I'm truly not, but at the same time I don't want to complain and be a debby-downer. I know women though, who are real, they show their emotion when something isn't quite right but at the same time still have that strength and soul peace from God. So I know it can happen, and I want to be that way too.

I also was thinking about how similar we all are. We are all so similar. To our core we want to be loved, and love others and do right in God's eyes. There are things in all of our lives that we want to improve and that we bring to God constantly. It's just so neat to think about how God knows each of us individually and meets with us, and really hears. He knows. Why am I so quick to judge other women when I really am more like them than I am different from them..?

(That's not pertaining to anything specific, I was just thinking about it this weekend)

In my time praying this evening I stumbled upon this verse and I've been soaking it in. :)You should too.

15 from whom every family[a] in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Ephesians 3:15-19

Teaching my full week starting tomorrow! I'm scared, nervous, excited and confident, all at the same time. eeek. Pray for mee! :)

Also-listen to this song! It's amazing.