Still chuggin' along

(May the God of peace) ..21Strengthen (complete, perfect) and make you what you ought to be and equip you with everything good that you may carry out His will; [while He Himself] works in you and accomplishes that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ (the Messiah); to Whom be the glory forever and ever (to the ages of the ages). Amen (so be it).
Hebrews 13:21

I love this verse.

I want to be so much better than I am.

Sometimes I catch glimpses of that girl that God is making me to be and I'm just trying to strive after that. It's really hard sometimes.

I can only change by coming to Him. HE is the one who strengthens me and makes me what I should be. HE equips me with everything I need! HE works in me accomplishing what is pleasing to Him.

Last night Kathi, Amanda and I finally were able to get together. Last year we were in prayer group together and have really missed just talking and praying and things so we met ...at the mall...haha of all places. It was really nice to talk again. We went a lot deeper than I or Amanda thought we would go.. There was some hard stuff discussed, at least on my end (and I think Amanda's too) but I think it was stuff we both needed to hear.

We went into a lot of stuff about my Dad, and it was really uncomfortable. I'm just confused about it right now and it's honestly the last thing I want to be thinking about and dealing with, but in a way I think it's what God wants. (For some odd reason...) Go figure.. God wants me to go where I don't want to. I'm still trying to sort through things, but we'll see how it goes.

I'm really trying to throw myself into God so that He can keep molding me. I'm really praying that He will show me the truths about who He is, because right now, with everything going on, I feel like my thoughts about Him are really clouded. =/

Hopefully it will get better soon...