Well, it's official. I am now a senior in college. I can't believe it, I have no idea where the time went. I hate change and one would think after the third time of dealing with another "College year" being over I'd be okay, but I still really struggle with the change. It has me feeling all kinds of mixed up inside. I felt really bad today again. Things tend to build up in my brain and I don't deal with them and they just all hit me at once and make me upset. It didn't hit me until yesterday that this year is over..ha, I think because I'm starting my summer class right away..but when I went to the gym yesterday and no one was there I remembered that it really is over because everyone pretty much left.
I'm excited for the changes and I am greatly anticipating what God has planned for my life, so I don't quite understand how it can make me feel so afraid at the same time.
I was feeling pretty convicted the past couple days about something and tonight I was able to pray about it and have God remind me of His amazing grace and forgiveness. While I was thinking and praying I realized how stretching this summer has the potential to be. I have 2 classes, and I'll be at school for a while. I'm not sure how much time pre-k will take up during the day but I'm excited that caregoup will still be going on. I think some really awesome stuff could happen also with the "Bible study" JJ, Amanda and I have recently decided to start. It's not really a Bible study exactly, more like accountability, but it's already been amazing to see how God has orchestrated the whole thing. It should be good, and I'm excited :)
I'll be at school probably until camp starts and by the time I get back Christin will be gone. I wasn't too excited to be working at camp without her, especially since we have both worked at camp together for the past couple years and it will just be really different. At the same time though, I think it might be good and really stretch me out of my comfort zone.
I'm also volunteering as a counselor at Swatara for a week in August and I know that will be stretching. I'm really excited about it because I've never done over night camp before. I'm interested to see how God will use me there to reach out to the camper girls :) I'm really nervous at the same time but I trust that God has some awesome things for me to learn.
I'm really trying to TRUST what God has for my life and not look at the lives of others and want what they have. I know God had some great plans for me and I know I need to trust that what He has will be GOOD. It's something I'm sure God will continue to help me grow in, and I continue to be amazed that what He has planned will be better than what I can even imagine!
3You will guard him and keep him in perfect and constant peace whose mind [both its inclination and its character] is stayed on You, because he commits himself to You, leans on You, and hopes confidently in You.
4So trust in the Lord (commit yourself to Him, lean on Him, hope confidently in Him) forever; for the Lord God is an everlasting Rock [the Rock of Ages]. Isaiah 26:3-4
20Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21
Blessed is He who forgives my sins and gives MORE grace.
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